Trust is so much more than just a feeling

Its an action

Where in, lack of, is simply the reaction to years of let downs from many different factions

which has left us reeling – in the feeling – of the pain

blinding us to the fact that trusting in man, and trusting in God have never been the same

everyone that I have seen has chipped away at that trust

yet trusting in He – who can not be seen – somehow is a must?

We can preach this to the choir, yet they can not sing it to us?

We have so many reasons why we shouldn’t

We tried to but we couldn’t

We wanted to but we wouldn’t

This internal war rages on

paying very little attention to the truth that everyday we trust in what can not be seen

Like, I heard a man say,

we can not see air, yet we choose to breathe

Like, this book started out so good, and although it is beginning to lull, I continue to read.

Every morning when you get in your car to go to work, you’ve put your trust in a machine

So why is it that I can place my trust in all of these THINGS

But not the God that made them?

We trust in our husbands and our wives and some of the other people in our lives

But not the God that created them?

If my friend asks me for a loan, ill gladly give them my last

Because I trust them to pay me back

But I can’t give God the first 10% of front of my income,

I need to make sure I can pay my bills, i’ve provided for my family, I’ve gone out and spent some

And at the end of the month ill gladly give Him 20% off of the back.

This thinking, is how that snowball of control gains momentum

Its in these fleeting moments where we’re too busy to pay attention to signs

Because we aren’t sure who sent them

Thinking like, no matter how lost I may be

Its too hard for me to take a step into a direction where the outcome I can’t see

God told me at the end of this journey the victory has been promised

Yet He wants me to go through a wilderness where I can’t survive alone, and Im sure ill be demolished

I wont go,

Ill stay – on this road, I chose, where every pothole and curb – I know

In this moment, Gods plan, I’ve just abolished

This fear based thought process can no longer continue

No matter how hungry I may be

Ill trust God to provide my next meal as long as I can create the menu

Thnking like, the way a person can show up in your life

In just the right place, at just the right time,

A seemingly answered prayer to a need that you’ve just expressed

Its too weird, too quick, and too rare and not what I expected

Right now, trust, is not what I feel

Instead I feel vulnerable and naked

Another chance to trust yet away I push

So what does it look like to walk in obedience and surrender?

Because I am so worn out and heavy from always trying to control

No matter how good things are the pressure is always crushing to my soul

God has told me to be strong and courageous because He goes with me.

That he will never leave me, never forsake me.

No matter how I feel, in this I can believe

From this we can draw a power that we alone we could never conceive.

We are called to trust in the Lord with all of our heart and lean not on our own understanding.

Trust is an action in this moment whether you believe it or you don’t

God loves us with a love that cant be imagined, earned, or lost

Your friends, family, and everyone else in your life may let you down but God wont.

Surrender looks like arms raised in praise and exaltation

when we are in dire need and surely facing devastation.

It looks like thanking Him for what we have and forgetting about what we don’t

Obedience looks like doing what is right even when you don’t feel like it

Choosing to pray for and help our enemies because I if you don’t, they wont

Surrender looks like giving in no matter how right we may be

Obedience looks like following the light at your feet on a path you can’t see